Wednesday, November 28, 2007

feeling the blues

Realizing that just because you can’t tell a person you love them doesn’t mean you don’t love them. (And it shouldn’t mean that they don’t feel your love.) It feels so unfulfilling to radiate love if you can’t know for sure that it is being properly received. (But shouldn’t the value be just in giving that love?) And it feels so frustrating to know that sometimes loved ones just can’t be in your life for complicated reasons. In ideal world, I would today be at my mother’s side, offering her comfort and any assistance I could to ease her pain. Instead, I sit miles away, trying to send her positive energy, and feeling sad about the necessary chasm between us.

I have been so consumed with grief lately – sadness for the most part. My eyes no longer just swell with tears, the tears can actually flow freely down my face. This may seem like a strange thing to desire, but it is so much better to fully feel the emotion and to let it out than to let it simmer and be apparent in my eyes, but still hovering in limbo somewhere between my internal and external reality. For me, the alternative has been to absorb the grief and turn it against myself, most apparently via migraines. Here’s to coming out of the migraine fog and truly feeling what I feel, even if those feelings are of sadness and regret. (I am truly grateful to have reassuring, unwaivering love and support that my other half gives me every day. Thanks, B!)

I've often had internal debates about how much to share of myself online. Lately, I have felt like my blog has gotten too quiet, and I know some of that is due to self censorship, for fear of what I might unleash, and never be able to undo. Jeff Jarvis of BuzzMachine (a wonderful blog about the transforming mediasphere) has a great post on the benefits of living in public.

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Great cooking resource

Thanks to Lifehacker, I now know about FoodTube. I can't wait to check out this resource at home - The site aggregates YouTube and Google videos of step-by-step instructions for cooking. Just in time for my holiday tamale plans. ; )

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Thursday, November 22, 2007

Happy Thanksgiving

Jeff Koons Balloon
Originally uploaded by LivinIn82
Barrett's just put the bourbon sweet potato pie crust in the oven. I made my cranberry and caramelized onion chutney and roasted parsnips and carrots last night. We already peeled the 40 cloves of garlic needed for the roasted fish sauce. Things are looking (& smelling!) good for our celebratory meal later today.

I feel immense gratitude for this life and the ability to share it with all my loved ones. Happy Thanksgiving!

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Saturday, November 17, 2007

Welcome to the world, Lucy!

Originally uploaded by Jake Bridge
Congrats to Mom and Pop Bridge. ; ) She's beautiful!

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

dj stereogab

Last night's Potluck was really fun. Maybe in a selfish way for me, since I think I scared some of the few customers lingering over cold ones @ Chief Ike's last night. That's right, we weren't @ Cosmo Lounge as planned, as the bartender for Chief Ike's (a larger, more popular bar with a much more sophisticated DJ setup and sound system) wanted to go home early and asked our friend, Chris, to sub for him. At first, I was feeling a bit nostalgic for the old dive bar upstairs, but quickly got over it. It was really fun being in an elevated DJ booth with the ability to crank out some of my current favorite tunes at maximum volume.

My style of DJing isn't clubby, though you could dance to (most) of what I played. Last night was very reminiscent of my old college radio late night slots at WLVR. (Lehigh friends reading this, check out their way too slick site.) I had almost forgotten how much fun I get from simply stringing together others' songs. (Then again, lately I think I've a bit of a hard time remembering fun period.)

Thanks to Hackmuth, Leafy and my favorite bartender for setting this up. I think we may do it again. This time, I'll do a better job publicizing it to friends.

Below is my set list (more or less, I didn't write it down as I went along), and click for Hackmuth's and Leafy Green's set lists, too.

Von Sudenfed (Mouse on Mars w/Mark E. Smith) - The Rhinohead
Broadcast - Black Cat
Four Tet - As Serious as Your Life
Edan - Promised Land
Caribou - Eli (note: if you haven't picked up their latest, Andorra, run don't walk to yr local record store!)
The Clientele - Winter on Victoria Street
Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds - There She Goes, My Beautiful World
Lou Reed - I'm So Free
Antony and the Johnsons (w/Lou Reed) - Fistfull of Love
Josephine Foster and the Supposed - Deathknell
Animal Collective - The Purple Bottle
Can - Moonshake
Landing - How to be Clean

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Thursday, November 08, 2007

Limited Edition Potluck

The Rebirth of Potluck
Originally uploaded by stereogab

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If you're in DC, stop by for a drink and some tunes.

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